Dreams

This girl. This young woman. Nearly twenty seven years later, I can look at her now with such love. She didn’t love herself, not back then. She didn’t know how. All she knew was that she wanted happiness, and she believed what she’d been taught. That love and happiness would come in the form of […]

Underneath

      There’s something about being on the other side of the world that gives me pause when I think about commenting on all that’s happened in America recently.  While I love my new home here in rural South Africa beyond reason, there’s part of my heart which will always remain enmeshed with the […]

silethokuhle

  In Zulu, silethokuhle.  In English, we bring the good. This is what we’ve chosen to call the fledgling foundation I’ve founded here in the community of Ngwenya, located in KwaZulu-Natal, the traditionally Zulu area in the northeast of this beautiful country of South Africa.   And it’s not that the foundation’s staff and I […]

everything

  A year ago or so, I painted this picture.  A series of them, actually.  All low mountains, deep colors, lots of golden light. And now I see this scene painted in front of me, full size, earth and sky, every day.  Like Bert and Mary Poppins, I’ve somehow jumped into the middle of that […]

wings

What am I doing in South Africa? I keep getting this question, from many people. And sometimes from myself.  The truth is, I don’t exactly know.  The truth is, that it is somehow, inexplicably, home.  And the truth is that, at least for right now, it’s where I belong. When I returned from South Africa:the dream trip, […]

resolving

  It’s the last day of the year and New Year’s Eve, for me, will be spent in this lovely lounge at Heathrow and then in a not too tiny metal tube in the sky, traveling from quite far north to the Southern hemisphere again.  Back to South Africa, this time for much longer.  I’ll […]

release

  The end of the year.  The full moon.  The dark beginning to turn to the light. A time, on all these fronts and more, to release. Release what binds us, what no longer serves us, what holds us back.   It’s really easy – and highly encouraged, it seems, in these waning days – […]

Lost

Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves. ~ Henry David Thoreau   I have spent so much of my life trying to find myself – and I’ve been in good company on that front.  There’s an entire industry built on just that, isn’t there?  And yet, maybe, what I need – what […]

help

  Help is strangely, something we want to do without, as if the very idea disturbs and blurs the boundaries of our indidviual endeavors, as if we cannot face how much we need in order to go on. We are born with an absolute necessity for help, grow well only with a continuous succession of […]

amazement

        The point is the seeing – the grace beyond recognition, the ways of the bird rising, unnamed, unknown, beyond the range of language, beyond its noun. Eyes open on growing, flying, happening, and go on opening.  Manifold, the world dawns on unrecognizing, realizing eyes. Amazement is the thing. Not love, but […]