Dreams

This girl. This young woman. Nearly twenty seven years later, I can look at her now with such love. She didn’t love herself, not back then. She didn’t know how. All she knew was that she wanted happiness, and she believed what she’d been taught. That love and happiness would come in the form of […]

Mirror

    The time will come when, with elation you will greet yourself arriving at your own door, in your own mirror, and each will smile at the other’s welcome and say, sit here.  Eat. You will love again the stranger who was yourself. Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart to itself, to […]

homecoming

I’m home. After driving more than 1200 miles and sleeping in six beds in nine days, across eight states, I am home. This trip was different than most – I drove rather than flying, I went back to a place I once knew well rather than exploring new territory,  I didn’t stay in one place […]

normal

  The way I regard those who hurt me today will affect how I experience the world in the future. In any encounter, we have a choice: we can strengthen our resentment or our understanding and empathy. We can widen the gap between ourselves and others or lessen it. ~ Pema Chodron   I hate the […]

awareness

  A couple months ago, I was asked by one of my favorite teenage girls to give a presentation on sexual assault awareness at her prestigious local high school.  This is a topic I believe is really important, so I agreed and we scheduled it for tomorrow.  Last night, I found out it was cancelled […]

arrival

      When you come to the place between. When you have left what you held most dear. When you are traveling toward the life you know not. When you arrive at the hardest ground. May it become for you a place to rest. May it become for you a place to dream. May […]

ten

    I’m writing about the stuff I was never supposed to talk about, still.  About things that happened which inexorably changed me, changed the path of my life, maybe changed the world for all I know.  And some days I don’t like it.  More specifically, I don’t like what I am beginning to see […]

Trust

             Above all, trust in the slow work of God. We are, quite naturally, impatient in everything To reach the end without delay. We should like to skip the intermediate stages. We are impatient of being on the way To something unknown, Something new,  And yet it is the law […]

sainthood

    I don’t think I’ll ever be a saint. Today, I’m sure of it. I just gave another driver the finger in the parking deck, when they honked their horn at me. To be completely fair, I was backing up and it could have been a warning. The story I told myself, however, was […]

antidote

      I am writing the book of my stories, called All Better Bye and Bye – the chronicles of growing up in a body that was never my own, a family that was more a collection of mismatched souls than anything, a house full of secrets and abuse – and how I got […]